Some time after the holidays, the muse left. I don’t know what scared her away. Or why she has stayed hidden for so many months. I only know that I suddenly had a deep hatred of every photograph I took and an even stronger resistance to taking new ones. My work sucked. It wasn’t worth paying for. My camera sucked. My business model sucked. My follow through sucked. My budget problems sucked. My ability to make this work…sucked.
Talking about it sucks, but here I am, talking about it.
I don’t know why I encounter creative blocks like these (and always have). Nor why it is so hard for me to break free of them once they occur. I haven’t quite broken free of this current funk. The muse has not returned. But, it’s possible, she may have booked her return flight and is on her way home.
I promise to share more in this space beyond party planning and photographs, soon. But right now I am knee deep in preparing for the launch of my first business, which is as time-consuming and financially draining as it sounds. More on that venture, soon…
In the mean time, let’s play along with this week’s beach theme from i heart faces. Unlike most weeks, I actually have several images to choose from for this one. Which is somewhat surprising, given that I am one of those heart-breaking people who live four miles from the Pacific Ocean; but a lifetime filled with body issues and years spent terrified of having my head submerged in water, means that the beach is really the last place I think of when I want to have a good time.
It’s not that I hate the beach. I’m just not drawn to it like I am to back country roads and mountain views. But, several friends from our now-defunct playgroup for a day at the beach, where I took a series of images that I immediately fell in love with. I wish I could say I knew when that was going to happen. Some days I have it, and some days the muse just vanishes.
The image below was one my favorites from day. It’s probably not the best choice because you can’t see the ocean, or even the sand. Unless you take a look at her fingers…
Please visit i heart faces to see all the other water-splashed, sand-covered faces for this week.
The theme for this week’s i heart faces photo challenge is Surprise. There’s nothing better than that look people have when they see or experience something unexpected. But the moment can be so fleeting, you don’t have time to reach for your camera, let alone adjust all your settings and attempt to get the shot. So part of the element of surprise comes from actually being ready to capture the moment when it happens. And if you can manage to get it in focus and exposed correctly, it’s all the better.
Here’s a picture of my water-timid girl being surprised by a sprinkler blast to the face when we recently visited a splash park.
Please click the i heart faces button below to see all the other surprised expressions: